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This boy. What a blessing. He challenges me every day yet brings me joy and love that is like nothing I’ve ever known, and sometimes feel like I don’t deserve. I think that is parenting in a nutshell, right? Oh and if anyone has tips for getting a kid who is downright refusing to take… Continue reading

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This Week in Photos | Week 4

Here is a look back on what we’ve been up to this week… Sometimes your kid draws on the windows with his peanut butter fingers and you say screw it in the name of art! Flowers from my Valentine Leaf in the sunlight My Valentine! My little artist First sap of the year! Griffin was… Continue reading This Week in Photos | Week 4

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This Week in Photos | Week 3

This past week we were still on the mend from our cold, even today it is not totally gone, it’s the cold that won’t quit! But, we were feeling loads better than the week before so we got outside to play a lot.
This week I started adjusting our schedule to accommodate Griffin not napping anymore. I’ve planned out our days more now so that I am prepared with more activities and things to do, either quiet time or play time. I’ve found this has helped me to adjust to not having a couple hours to myself. When it’s quiet time he’ll either play by himself in his room for awhile or I’ll put a show on for him while he lays down on the couch, it is good for him to be alone and for me to get some work done or relax as well.
The bonus to him not napping is bed time is a breeze now, he his so tired by the end of the day that when his head hits the pillow he is out!

Griffin and Titi playing in the snow.
The snowman Griffin and I made together…and by together I mean I built it because all he wanted to do was put the carrot nose in.
But it was worth it because it made him super happy.
This bump is getting big! Officially half way!
Sunday morning waffles!
Needed to get back to smoothies this week after being sick and not wanting much more than soup for a week.
I have a shelf for my mugs now ;)!
Ripley loves winter!
Robe snuggles.
Griffin doing the dishes.


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Pregnancy Update | Halfway!

We’ve made it, the halfway mark. Already the first part of this pregnancy is over. I’d like to say that I spent this first half soaking it all in and enjoy each and every day, I certainly have tried but fear and anxiety have definitely been a part of my every day life for the last 20 weeks.

Each day I worried it would be the last with this baby so each day I tried to embrace the blessing that was given to me and each new day that came I was grateful but also scared it would be the last.
I never thought these things while I was pregnant with Griffin, I don’t even remember thinking about miscarriage once. Now, with losing Lucy and miscarrying in the pregnancy after her, it was a constant on my mind this time.
Every week I hit I would celebrate but the big milestone was getting past 20 weeks. Not just because the risk of miscarriage decreases greatly after that point but because at 20 weeks is when we found out about Lucy’s condition.

The day of our ultrasound I had a lot of anxiety, as I laid there on the bed and the technician did her thing I just kept thinking horrible words associated with Lucy’s condition: echogenic lungs, hydrops, ascities, enlarged trachea….
I knew that if something was wrong the technician wouldn’t be able to tell me, but when she turned the screen towards me and I saw our little one I knew that just from looking at the screen it didn’t look like Lucy’s did. I know I’m not a professional but having seen Lucy on the ultrasound screen a hundred times and what a normal baby should look like, this baby looked good.
I had to wait 4 more days to call my doctor to verify that everything was OK and when I heard those words I relaxed. For the first time in 20 weeks I let go of my fear, my fear that it would all be the same, that we’d relive that nightmare all over again. And then the realization set in that this baby may actually get to come home with us, will meet their big brother, will sleep on Daddy’s chest while he relaxes after work, will make our family complete.
I know we have 20 more weeks (or if it plays out like Griffin’s pregnancy 14 more weeks…) and in that time anything can happen, but with each day more that I get I feel more connected to this baby, to my body and to this life than I ever have before.